Sweets are an Idol

What a bummer this is. God is doing some serious peeling away of things in my life right now. In my heart, I know it's what I want. It's what I asked for. "Please make me more like your son I said." "Give me the desire to be more like you" I had a verse on my chalkboard, Psalm 37:4- Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Well, I asked for it. Now he's stripping me of the ugly crap in my life, and it's pretty painful! I did really great through the holidays with my eating, resisting plates of cookies that I made, that I could have grazed on all day. But the past few days, I was searching for and eating chocolate again. After a few days of it, and being convicted and stressed out, I emailed Diane about it. Asking why is this happening to me? She came back with a some great answers as always. This morning I was reading my weekly chapter in the book Love to eat hate to eat, and came across this- "Those that indulge their lust will never be estranged from it" My first thought was , "Oh no! He wants me to give up chocolate and sweets!" I even wrote Diane and questioned it! After thinking about it even more, I know for sure that's what he wants me to do. For one thing, if that's my thinking, that I can't live the rest of my life without sweets or chocolate! That right there, shows me that food is an IDOL to me. Anything you think you can't live without is an Idol. If sweets are an idol God wants them to go. So that is what I have to do. Because God is Good. God knows what is best for me. ( Jeremiah 29:11 " For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.") He knows I'll never be fully satisfied by the temporary high i feel from sweets. This is NOT going to be an easy thing to lay down for me. It's going to be really, really hard. I am going to need some serious prayers people!

I know that my life is supposed to be a "living sacrifice" to God so there are things that I have to give up. Maybe temporarily, maybe forever. He gave up his life for me, so the least I can do is give up sweets.

Diane has told me that she is really not tempted to go back to sweets because what she has in Christ is so much more satisfying then any piece of cake. I want to know that feeling. I won't know it unless I give God a chance to show me.

Funny, thing. I think God really speaks to me through music a lot of the time. When I was just standing in the kitchen making Ben more toast, the song "Lifesong" By Casting Crowns came on. I used to have this as my ringtone on my cell phone.

Check out these lyrics.

Empty Hands held high

Such Small sacrifice

If not joined with my lifeI sing in vain tonight

May the words I say,And the things I do

Make my lifesong sing Bring a smile to you

Chorus:Let my lifesong sing to You

Let my lifesong sing to You

I want to sign your nameto the end of this day

Knowing that my heart was true

Let my lifesong sing to You!

LORD, I give my lifeA Living sacrifice

To reach a world in need

To be your hands and feet

So may the words I say,And the things I do

Make my lifesong singBring a smile to You