That's me. I'm a full blown worry wart. I'm sure the fact that I have an anxiety disorder plays a part in how much I worry about things, but sometimes ( alot of the time) I worry about things that I just don't have any control over!
I've been having pain in my ovary area, had an exam and an ultrasound and they found a cyst on the right side, but my pain is on the left. They aren't quite sure what the pain is so they tell me to wait it out a few cycles. I'm frustrated. They could at the very least do blood work or something.
I'm quite sure that the fact that my mother died of cancer makes things worse. I have a fear of getting cancer. Why wouldn't I? Maybe I'm wrong for feeling that way, but to me, losing my mom at 11 had a big impact, and I DO not want my kids growing up without a mother, and I don't want to miss a second of any of their lives. Of course, that is not up to ME. So I do spend time praying about it. That God would allow Kevin and I to grow old and become grandparents and be able to spend time with our grandchildren. This post got away from me! My main reason for writing this post was to write myself some bible verses to come back to so I stop thinking about my pain and worrying that I have cancer when I have absolutely NO evidence that I have cancer! So, here's two that I thought would be good to get in my head!
"So do not fear, for I am with you;do not be dismayed, for I am your God.I will strengthen you and help you;I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7
1 comment:
I like Matthew 6 as well..."do not worry...".
I relate to you so well. My dad died of cancer..as have many of my other relatives. My mom had a stroke when she was 40. My grandmother had breast cancer. The list goes on and on. I am constantly trying to talk myself out thinking that something is seriously wrong with me..and its hard.
Josh and I teach the Jr. and Sr. high sunday school class at our Church and we recently read the Phil 4 vs. We read it over and over again..it was quite encouraging to us as well as the kids.
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